ALONE PART 2

i THOUGHT MAYBE I WAS NOT NORMAL BECAUSE I WANTED TO BE WHITE AND THIN LIKE A PORCELAIN DOLL. I GOT MAD QUICKLY, AND I FELT UNHAPPY WITH EVERYTHING. 

IN LIFE, I DIDN'T OBEY MY PARENTS , AND I DIDN'T GET ALONG WITH ALL THE FAMILY. 

AT LEAST, I KNOW MY SISTER BETTER, BUT SHE CHANGED ANYTHING.

I STOPPED EATING, I ATE TWICE PER A DAY., MY FEELINGS ARE HURT , AND MEMORIES OF MY CHILHOOD ARE UNCOMFORTABLE BECAUSE I DON'T LIKE IT AND I WAS NOT HAPPY WITH IT. 

WHEN I FELT ALONE, I COULD BE ANGRY OR SAD. 

WHEN I DIDN'T FEEL ANYTHING FOR NOBODY, I PREFERED ALONE AND PEACE. 

I WAS DIAGNOSED WITH ANXIETY AND DEPPRESION. 

WHEN ANXIETY ATTACKED ME VERY STRONGLY, I DIDN'T WANT TO TALK TO ANYONE, I PREFERED TO BE IN A QUIET PLACE TO RELAX MYSELF, SOMETIMES I ATE SOMETHING BECAUSE OF HYPOGLYCEMIA. 

WHEN ANXIETY ATTACKED ME, I WAS AFRAID OF THE FUTURE FOR EXAMPLE I THIOUGHT ABOUT NEGATIVE THINGS; WAR, PANDEMIC, DISEASE, CRISIS, OTHER, ETC. 

SOMETIMES I THOUGHT I WANTED TO DIE MYSELF ,BUT I COULDN'T DO IT, BUT I DON0T WANT TO LIVE . 

PEOPLE TRIED TO SUPPORT ME , BUT DEPENDS ON ME. BUT LIFE SOMETIMES DOESN'T WORK. 

MAYBE I AM A WEIRD PERSON BECAUSE I'M VERY DIFFERENT. SOMETIMES I AM IN A BAD MOOD, I DO MY STUFF (PLANS, HOBBIES, ETC) SO THAT I DON'T FEEL SAD BY MYSELF. 

IT IS DIFFICULT THAT I HEAL MY EMOTIONAL WOUNDS. 

I DON'T LOVE MY LIFE, BUT I AM IN CONTROL.